Birthday with Bebel

its august 30. bday. or as some indians say it, "my happy birthday". haven't known a year where that phrase hasn't been more wrong.

this birthday is raking up too many bad memories, i just want to avoid picking up my phone and move on. unfortunately...i'm too fucking nice to think about myself and do that :) thats my eternal problem...too...fucking...nice.

luckily i have some great music to help me get through the day.
Bebel Gilberto's Winter (Nuspirit Helsinki Mix) video
watch it here: http://www.opika.easynet.be/video/Bebel_Winter.mov

then theres another cool mix on the Six Feet Under Vol 2. Soundtrack. Its called Aganju and its sweet, sultry and very addictive. I love her voice, it makes me fall in love with her :)
http://www.mp3.com/albums/20049098/summary.html

you can listen to Aganju there for free right now.


I plan to watch some movie this week, especially The Constant Gardener which promises to be less Eurocentric and more "new age" than John Le Carre's novel on which it is based. I have high hopes for this movie cause its directed by the guy who did City of God, which is one of my all time favorite movies. This one should be a lot of fun.

My favorite film of the year so far: Me and you and everyone we know.

September can't come fast enough.

mint royale

oh, how i love remixes of old great tunes...everyone take the time to check this out...its a beauty...
click here!

and while you guys are at it, check out
http://www.ladytron.com

and then http://www.miauk.com
shes a srilankan british singer who writes about the LTTE rebellion, and really catchy beats.

thats my music post for now...enjoy :)

cronenberg!

sorry folks (or the 2 people who are reading this). I had to stop all other posts and push my newest one further on down to the bottom in favor of this wicked wicked poster. I have so many expectations from this movie. It looks like a good ol' thriller. Plus Viggo's presence can only mean good things.

i need to catch up on more cronenberg films myself. But I have a long list to go through first.

My current DVD list:
Girl with a Pearl Earring (Scarlet Johanssen, about the famous Dutch artist Vermeer)
The Jacket (Thriller, Adrien Brody and Keira Knightley)
Six Feet Under: Season 3 Disc1 ('nuff said, this show is amazing)
Born into Brothels (i'm probably the last one to get around to seeing this, i've heard its excellent)
Carnivale: Season 1 Disc1 ( I have heard only good things about this show set in a 1930's circus family. Its supposed to be eerie, bizarre and utterly compelling. Can't wait).

in the meantime, all y'all should check out the trailer for "A History of Violence" its on the Apple Trailer site. http://www.apple.com/trailers/newline/ahistoryofviolence/

changes, beginnings

i apologize for the long time between posts. I moved apartments in the past two weeks. Nothing major, I didn't move far, I just moved a few minutes away from my previous apartment, to one that is infinitely better.
We now have a little screened porch and a tall living room with a slanted ceiling, a kitchen with actual fluorescent lighting, a real fireplace!
After multiple trips to IKEA, (yes, i'm so lucky theres one just 5 mins from my place) I finally bought the furniture i needed. I even constructed the furniture and mostly unpacked.
Now all thats left is buying a rug or two, getting some curtains up and painting the porch with a stunning color. can't wait.

The change of aparments has done me good. I have definitely been in a much better mood than in the final days in my old apartment. Its now four months that I have lived in heartbreak, anger and sadness. I am not now nor will ever be the same person I was before April. Perhaps this is growing up...perhaps this is life....perhaps people were right about time making things better. And they are better, for the most part. But they are also not...you know? How does one know if they have gotten over something and gotten back to how they were, or just adapted to live with something so that they don't know the difference? Am I over the pain? Or just numb to it? I don't know.

There have been significant changes to my lifestyle. Some of them I won't go into here. I have made some new friends, I now have a routine. The Shambhala Meditation center on tuesdays. BTW, the shambhala method of meditation is an excellent way to bring some inner understanding. I won't say peace, because one needs to use the understanding to get it.
Salsa dance classes on Mondays. I always knew I had a dancer in me, and now I get to finally put all that night club experience into a ballroom dance :)

Soon, i'm gonna incorporate the gym (once it reopens) and perhaps an art class into the routine. It feels great....feels like the shackles have come off. Still....why does it feel like there are new ones at my feet?

I have a lot more to post. some mundane atlanta life stuff, some stuff about friends, and some brilliant cinema. can't wait to get it all down.

(mood: hopeful, optimistic, but guarded)