changes, beginnings
i apologize for the long time between posts. I moved apartments in the past two weeks. Nothing major, I didn't move far, I just moved a few minutes away from my previous apartment, to one that is infinitely better.
We now have a little screened porch and a tall living room with a slanted ceiling, a kitchen with actual fluorescent lighting, a real fireplace!
After multiple trips to IKEA, (yes, i'm so lucky theres one just 5 mins from my place) I finally bought the furniture i needed. I even constructed the furniture and mostly unpacked.
Now all thats left is buying a rug or two, getting some curtains up and painting the porch with a stunning color. can't wait.
The change of aparments has done me good. I have definitely been in a much better mood than in the final days in my old apartment. Its now four months that I have lived in heartbreak, anger and sadness. I am not now nor will ever be the same person I was before April. Perhaps this is growing up...perhaps this is life....perhaps people were right about time making things better. And they are better, for the most part. But they are also not...you know? How does one know if they have gotten over something and gotten back to how they were, or just adapted to live with something so that they don't know the difference? Am I over the pain? Or just numb to it? I don't know.
There have been significant changes to my lifestyle. Some of them I won't go into here. I have made some new friends, I now have a routine. The Shambhala Meditation center on tuesdays. BTW, the shambhala method of meditation is an excellent way to bring some inner understanding. I won't say peace, because one needs to use the understanding to get it.
Salsa dance classes on Mondays. I always knew I had a dancer in me, and now I get to finally put all that night club experience into a ballroom dance :)
Soon, i'm gonna incorporate the gym (once it reopens) and perhaps an art class into the routine. It feels great....feels like the shackles have come off. Still....why does it feel like there are new ones at my feet?
I have a lot more to post. some mundane atlanta life stuff, some stuff about friends, and some brilliant cinema. can't wait to get it all down.
(mood: hopeful, optimistic, but guarded)
We now have a little screened porch and a tall living room with a slanted ceiling, a kitchen with actual fluorescent lighting, a real fireplace!
After multiple trips to IKEA, (yes, i'm so lucky theres one just 5 mins from my place) I finally bought the furniture i needed. I even constructed the furniture and mostly unpacked.
Now all thats left is buying a rug or two, getting some curtains up and painting the porch with a stunning color. can't wait.
The change of aparments has done me good. I have definitely been in a much better mood than in the final days in my old apartment. Its now four months that I have lived in heartbreak, anger and sadness. I am not now nor will ever be the same person I was before April. Perhaps this is growing up...perhaps this is life....perhaps people were right about time making things better. And they are better, for the most part. But they are also not...you know? How does one know if they have gotten over something and gotten back to how they were, or just adapted to live with something so that they don't know the difference? Am I over the pain? Or just numb to it? I don't know.
There have been significant changes to my lifestyle. Some of them I won't go into here. I have made some new friends, I now have a routine. The Shambhala Meditation center on tuesdays. BTW, the shambhala method of meditation is an excellent way to bring some inner understanding. I won't say peace, because one needs to use the understanding to get it.
Salsa dance classes on Mondays. I always knew I had a dancer in me, and now I get to finally put all that night club experience into a ballroom dance :)
Soon, i'm gonna incorporate the gym (once it reopens) and perhaps an art class into the routine. It feels great....feels like the shackles have come off. Still....why does it feel like there are new ones at my feet?
I have a lot more to post. some mundane atlanta life stuff, some stuff about friends, and some brilliant cinema. can't wait to get it all down.
(mood: hopeful, optimistic, but guarded)
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